Molded, shaped, processed.
Inside and out through and through.
Redefined, remeasured back to its original fit.
The tailored experience.
A tap that turns into a nudge, then a pull to finalize in a thrust forward.
Destiny and purpose.
Something we all in life search for whether it be subconsciously or right in front of our faces.
One that I know is now in the stage of thrust.
The time is now.
Lights are on, the script is in session.
Begin.
You would think having the name Faith would mean I am fearless and always keeping faith alive as they say. But even with the name Faith I still feel fear creeping up every now and then. It softly taps my shoulder, and remind me of things I “supposedly” am not capable of achieving and pursuing. Key word…supposedly. The acronym for fear is: False Evidence Appearing Real, a mirage that can easily be misinterpreted if not scrutinized to its fullest capacity. This is where your lens comes into play. How are you seeing and viewing things? Is it from a healthy place or a space of familiarity?
Perspective equals direction, focus equals vision. Two very important factors that determine the trajectory of life. How well you see and what you are seeing can be centered in a conjured truth contrary to the reality of what is being presented. When this happens a red flag should be blazing right about now. During my Junior year of college I desperately wished I would of payed attention to the signs at a closer vantage point. But, as many say, when you are truly in the thick of it your lens can be blurred and in need of some major cleaning. Now, no one said that the activation of Faith would come easy. It is a process that truly turns you around from the inside out. It is a complete reworking of the manufactured system of the conditioned. In this realm we are used to thinking in our mind one way based on how previous actions and environments directly affect the functionality of our results. We can find here that there is little to no room for the fruit of Faith to find a home to reside. Instead we become so filled with stuff and not the real thing. Similar to any plant, it needs the room and space to grow as it is for Faith in its accessibility and flexibility. This stretching process out of the realm of the conditioned is the most uncomfortable and unfamiliar place one can begin to walk in. Your sight is now no longer in the tangible things and instead placed in the unforeseen where your belief and hope resides along with Faith. Although this can be a fearful state to be in due to the unknown of what is to come, I am consistently finding that the outcome is more than worth it, and one that God continued to reassure me would fix the cry of my heart when words and dance failed. It was a deep womb that could only be nurtured back to health in an honest connection with the Father. Once this circuit became established and I plugged in to the source I knew I could always draw from Him no matter the cost. The way I see it in this new lens who wouldn’t want to be connected to something like this? But maybe you don’t, and please know that is more than ok as well. In life we are free to make choices where the outcome has an indirect effect on the trajectory of the steps you take in life. From my experience, I would say this step has caused the direction of my life to be on an uphill view. Even in the disappointments and setbacks, the trajectory remained upward. I am finding that sometimes in life you have to lose to gain. That seems to be the only way to fully come into the substance of what truly makes up who you are. The revealing of what is left inside of you after the “stuff” and temporary satisfaction is stripped. The blind trust to believe even when it seems like all odds are against you. This has been a strength for me in the stepping of pursuing my dreams and goals of life. The artist inside of my heart and creativity of my mind began to expand and increase in its capability once I made the decision to take these trust falls. One after the another. Doing it all afraid.
Faith is defined as the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen. (Hebrews 6:11) Key words, not seen.. In those critical moments of your life when you just cannot seem to get yourself out of whatever your this is with your sight, what do you do? How do you somehow find the way forward or the light at the end of the tunnel? I can only share from my experience that it was God who brought me out. Placing my hope in him further anchored my soul in the knowing that he will do everything he has said. God is the light of my life so therefore I am. His sight foresees anything I may have thought I would be able to look through or pass. Faith is a blind trust fall. It is a place where you can’t see what’s behind you and you simply believe with no hesitation in your heart that you will be caught every time. In each step you take, with each stride and leap taken you believe it will always end in a catch for you. Whether that be a catch of more confidence, joy, belief, wisdom, peace, the list can go on and on. This is pretty much how my life has felt these past two years. Just trust fall, after trust fall, one after the other. Should I take the step or should I wait? Do I go for it? Do I do the audition? Do I just wait a little longer? Am I moving in haste or wisdom? Did I fulfill my assignment in its cultivation before transition? I mean the questions truly never stopped until I found that settling within my spirit in whatever decision would be made.
This is what I identified as the agreement to step away from me.
To die to me.
….I know take a second it is getting heavy. I feel it too. Ok deep breath….inhale and exhale…there you go. Now I know you may be thinking die to me? What the heck does that mean? Listen have no fear faith joy to the rescue is here. (Don’t mind me I just came up with that on the spot)
To be continued….
Forever in Faith Forever in Motion.
Faith Joy Mondesire